Sometimes I wonder what my hockey career is worth.
Blood, sweat, and tears, sure.
But losing Ash?
I can't.

I shouldn't ask this of her.
To ignore the rumors.
To let go of the scandal.
To accept the spotlight.
To give up her dreams so I can chase mine.

Balancing it all, though?
Well, that's a different sort of torture.
I have no idea how long I can hold on without my past catching up to us.
And when it does?
Well, Ash deserves better than a screw up like me.