Part memoir, part speculative fiction, The Girl I Am, Was, and Never Will Be explores the often-surreal experience of growing up as a mixed-Black transracial adoptee.



Dream Country author Shannon Gibney returns with The Girl I Am, Was, and Never Will Be, a book woven from her true story of growing up as a mixed-Black transracial adoptee and fictional story of Erin Powers, the name Shannon was given at birth, a child raised by a white, closeted lesbian. At its core, the novel is a tale of two girls on two different timelines occasionally bridged by a mysterious portal and their shared search for a complete picture of their origins. Gibney surrounds that story with reproductions of her own adoption documents, letters, family photographs, interviews, medical records, and brief essays on the surreal absurdities of the adoptee experience. The end result is a remarkable portrait of an American experience rarely depicted in any form. A genre-bending exploration of race and the search for personal identity. Gibney embraces the unknowable gaps in her own life story and uses her skill as a novelist to fill the holes.